coexist.

the love i’ve had and have given,
i give them all to you
it was childish to be afraid of something so divine
i was wading in cold water
waiting for a reason to dive right in
and darling
you’ve given me all that i could have wished for

do you ever wonder what it’s like to touch the edges of the universe?
cause i’ll give that to you and so much more
and when you’re afraid to move beyond this space
i’ll find new constellations for you to look up to

sweetheart
i think i’ve traced infinities on your back
wrote love letters down your skin
left promises on your lips
made it seem like eternity exists
and when you’ve grasped onto the fear of losing yourself
i only hope to loosen your fingertips
and hold them against my own

if i could keep you with me
wherever place i go
i would do so in a heartbeat
because i wanna see how far this goes
and where it’ll end up
i’m sure this road will be neverending
because i’ve felt forever
in the way that you hold me
especially at night when the lights are low
when the moon is up
and the only thing to judge us is the darkness
felt it in the way
your kisses make me feel holy
the way your fingertips make me feel
like i’ve been cleansed of all my sins
darling
i could live a hundred lives
and still fall in love with the way that you smile
still wish on the stars that you would catch me every time
and know this is all worthwhile

and if you asked me if i love you
i’d tell you
we coexist like the sun and moon
i’m only brighter when you’re around
and baby
i think
i think i’d love you as long as the sun’s in the sky
and promise to love you much longer than that

inspiration.

give me an excuse
to write all types of poetry
be my muse
the source of all my
love and chaos
the epitome of all that is
right and wrong

i would take you everyday
carve out your name
on my skin
as if you were a mistake
waiting to be made

give me a chance
to show you
all my potential

i can trace your promises
on the stars up above
and when i have nothing to look up to
i’ll remember your words
were etched in forever

and you’ve come across
my universe
like a shooting star
so rare
i almost didn’t catch you

fall for me
like raindrops on a california sky
arrive unexpectedly
but always welcome in my arms

i could build a throne for you
create castles in the skies for you
remember you
when i look at the moon

i have crossed oceans for you
trying to find homes
in places i did not belong
find me on the shore
give me a reason to
love you like i’ve never loved before

fear

i have a fear of earthquakes
that one day i’ll get caught up in one and i’m all alone
i’m afraid that i’m going to get crushed by the ceiling
that i’m going to be crying out for help and no one’s going to be there to save me
i have a fear of the ocean
even though it calms me sometimes
i’m afraid that one day i’m going to be swept away by the tide
and not be able to swim back to the shore
i have a fear of drowning
i’ve been close to it numerous times before
and i now i get panic attacks whenever i’m in the deep end for too long
i love flying
but i have a fear of airplanes
i’m always afraid that one day it’s just going to disappear
or fall from the sky and no one’s ever gonna hear from me ever again
i’m afraid of a lot of things
but i think the one thing i’m most afraid of
is losing you
because i think i can stomach
earthquakes, the ocean, drowning, and a free-falling airplane
before i can stomach the thought of not having you in my life

coexist.

the love i’ve had and have given,
i give them all to you
it was childish to be afraid of something so divine
i was wading in cold water
waiting for a reason to dive right in
and darling
you’ve given me all that i could have wished for

do you ever wonder what it’s like to touch the edges of the universe?
cause i’ll give that to you and so much more
and when you’re afraid to move beyond this space
i’ll find new constellations for you to look up to

sweetheart
i think i’ve traced infinities on your back
wrote love letters down your skin
left promises on your lips
made it seem like eternity exists
and when you’ve grasped onto the fear of losing yourself
i only hope to loosen your fingertips
and hold them against my own

if i could keep you with me
wherever place i go
i would do so in a heartbeat
because i wanna see how far this goes
and where it’ll end up
i’m sure this road will be neverending
because i’ve felt forever
in the way that you hold me
especially at night when the lights are low
when the moon is up
and the only thing to judge us is the darkness
felt it in the way
your kisses make me feel holy
the way your fingertips make me feel
like i’ve been cleansed of all my sins
darling
i could live a hundred lives
and still fall in love with the way that you smile
still wish on the stars that you would catch me every time
and know this is all worthwhile

and if you asked me if i love you
i’d tell you
we coexist like the sun and moon
i’m only brighter when you’re around
and baby
i think
i think i’d love you as long as the sun’s in the sky
and promise to love you much longer than that

lucky

i’m thanking my lucky stars
that you fell into my life
i apologize in advance
if i ever let you down
i promise
i’ll never do you wrong on purpose

i need you to know

inspiration.

give me an excuse
to write all types of poetry
be my muse
the source of all my
love and chaos
the epitome of all that is
right and wrong

i would take you everyday
carve out your name
on my skin
as if you were a mistake
waiting to be made

give me a chance
to show you
all my potential

i can trace your promises
on the stars up above
and when i have nothing to look up to
i’ll remember your words
were etched in forever

and you’ve come across
my universe
like a shooting star
so rare
i almost didn’t catch you

fall for me
like raindrops on a california sky
arrive unexpectedly
but always welcome in my arms

i could build a throne for you
create castles in the skies for you
remember you
when i look at the moon

i have crossed oceans for you
trying to find homes
in places i did not belong
find me on the shore
give me a reason to
love you like i’ve never loved before

favorite.

from my
list of
possibilities
you’re my favorite

our story.

Our story was left unfinished,
Got cut off mid-sentence
And in between the beginning and the end.
Maybe that was how it was supposed to be;
Maybe my 365-paged novel
That was dedicated solely to you
Was meant to be left unwritten,
And that no matter how many times I edit it,
How many times I scribble over mistakes,
How many times I try to erase the unnecessary things I never meant to say,
The main characters weren’t meant for each other
Even if they believed it.
I didn’t mean for this to end so abruptly;
I was so ready to draft out the sequels,
But I was left uninspired
And the words just didn’t come out right.
Our story was left unfinished,
But that doesn’t mean it was never important,
That it wasn’t special,
That it doesn’t deserve recognition.
It will stick out from the bookcase
It’s stored in
And even as the pages are filled with dust
And overspilling thoughts across the margins,
I will remember to always come back to it,
Always remember to go back to the doggy-eared pages
Meant for memories that we wrote together,
Always remember to read over the passages
That I highlighted
That were of the moments we created.
One day,
You are going to find someone
Who will write about your story
About how you came to be,
And she will write sequels
Meant only for you,
And you’ll read it to your children,
And your story will get published
Even with its mistakes
And doggy eared pages
And highlighted areas.
One day
That will happen
And I hope to read it
Someday
So I can imagine how happy you are
With the person who was meant to write you novels,
And not just poems
And love notes on binder paper
And unwritten stories about your adventures together,
And this will happen
And i can’t wait to read it

luck.

it was luck that i met you
that our paths crossed
the stars aligned
thought the universe would be a little better
if we introduced ourselves to one another

darling
you’re my North star
the only constant in my life
you lead me to my destination
and though the waves are rough
and we go our separate ways
i know i’ll always have you
to look up to
when i need guidance

they told me
things happen for a reason
well
c’est la chance
if we never met
i don’t know what i would be
i feel the luckiest when
i’m sipping coffee
with you beside me
you’re my most prized inspiration
an aspiration to become a better person
and promises were never my specialty
but i promise
i’ll love you forever and always,
past, present, future
to infinity and beyond
past the stars and the moon
and if the universe decides to
keep us astray
i promise to always find my way back to you